Difficult Emotions

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I struggle with anger and difficult emotions at times. When you come close to the Light, it can be confusing to see such strong negative emotions rising up. It’s natural I have found. These emotions, as temperamental children, demand our attention at uncomfortable times. I have been seeking an answer to how to deal with these emotions.

Love is always there, but we are filled with many other things as well. We gain our knowledge from the world. We must live in and experience the world. We need insight and compassion to change ourselves and indeed the world. We ourselves are not the standard, nor is any other person. We can trust our daily experience guided by insight and mindfulness. We need to learn to be mindful enough to let impulses pass.

The Sufi’s have taught me about loving myself. Jesus taught me to love my brother. From The Four Quartets:

Desire itself is movement
Not in itself desirable;
Love is itself unmoving,
Only the cause and end of movement,
Timeless, and undesiring
Except in the aspect of time
Caught in the form of limitation
Between un-being and being.

The Buddhists have been helping me learn compassion as well. I have to be mindful of these difficult feelings. I am challenged to not respond to them, if I do, I quickly stand up and brush myself off.

Mindfulness helps you to become aware of these feelings. We can bear these difficult emotions. To stay present in our anger and difficult emotions is difficult, but awareness of these emotions brings change. If I can see this anger and feelings in myself and let them flow away, I can see it in others and learn to not respond to them as well. I can have compassion. Anger hurts you and your target. I am practicing not reacting to these emotions. It goes slowly.

Silent Awe

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“People who’ve had any genuine spiritual experience always know that they don’t know. They are utterly humbled before mystery. They are in awe before the abyss of it all, in wonder at eternity and depth, and a Love, which is incomprehensible to the mind.”

~ Richard Rohr

Heaven is Here

When the Mind is Clear
Illuminate the Path
Draw the Mind Back
Pull out of the trap
Hidden in this moment
Buried right where you are at
Its a state of mind
Graceland
Dissolve your fear
Into Love
Your body is on loan
This is your bridge
To the road home

The Yogi knows
Groove to your
Soul
Shine where you are

A Breath In the Holographic Mind of the Omega

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What do I know
I move without knowing

When man finished their walk about on the moon
I came to be

That crook was leaving office
The lights were going out and cars sputtering

I grew up in a soup of

Plastic
Chemicals
Kool Aid
And
High fructose corn syrup

BPA courses through my veins
Mercury shines in my iris

Did my generation stand a chance
We span the analog and digital

ADHD OCD ABC XYZ
Acronyms tattooed on my soul

Row together
Or drown alone

Our lives are spacetime braids
The particles of You moving through time and space

Perhaps we are living out our lives as simulations
Quantum fluctuations on the surface of a black hole
At the end of time

The Redwoods tower
The waves crash
The sky burns blue, white and gray
The wind blows on my face
The soft smells of good earth on my hands
The still waters lay before me
The warm sun on my face filling my soul
Food and drink fill my belly

I’m alive
Connected to all
Not a waste of space
Joyful

The secrets of the Universe will come another time
Pull up a front row seat to the Apocalypse