9 of Cups

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Be sure you are ready to ask
The Last Question
The answer will cost you
Everything you have gained
I learned my purpose
Was to learn to
Love
I thought we did that
Naturally
I was wrong
I had to learn
To love myself
First
I had to learn a lot
About what I was not
What was left
Was Me

I learned
I was master of all I survey
Outside and within
I learned to see and feel
The love of the Universe
To see the reality of all I hoped
In the eyes of another
It was a hard road
I’m enjoying the view
I see the Universe alive
Within and outside
Heaven is here
I always ran from it
I think this time
I will rest
And be
Joyful

At the Gate Of Humility – T

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“Only a person who has passed through the gate of humility can ascend to the heights of the spirit.”

To all of those who helped me on my journey
What can I say
I will repay my debt to you with my open arms
I will fan the flames of truth wherever I see them
I will love with abandon
I will give all I have
I will never turn away one who seeks the truth
My life for them
My life for you
See with my eyes
See your son’s broken heart mended anew

I am naked before the world
I am a foolish man
I have fallen for the oldest tricks
Who can I trust
No one
You can only trust in what is within
I always doubted my voice
I was always pushed away or out
I always asked too many questions
I let myself and others down following my lusts and passions
I lived in fear for my very soul
Then, at the right times, seeds were planted
Embers flamed
And I found myself at the Gate of Humility
Many hands pulled me forward
Doubts melting away
Shedding fear
And feeling boundless love
I found something so true and so precious
I wish I could shoot my heart upon the world
So all could taste of the sweet truth singing in my blood

I see a great darkness creeping at the fringes of our world
An ancient foe
How can we contain such darkness
Only with the cleansing purifying fire of the light
You must be righteous and true to walk this path
There is no room for the old ways
If I don’t let it shine
Who will
You
Please, come and throw your life into the only
Fight that matters

It is time to rise and shuck off the shackles of ignorance
It is time to love your brother
It is time to resist in love
It is time to learn what you truly are

I am on the edge of a new dawn
It makes me laugh with joy to see and know myself
I look over my shoulder
With the wonder of a child
How can this be real
Because this is destiny

I am no one
Damaged goods
I make people uncomfortable
I delight in tipping them over
I try to show them the absurdity of life with no spirit
I have such raw power flailing out of me

I heard a voice singing in my soul

I saw how beautiful I was
I saw how amazing and unique I was in all the Universe
Perhaps I am the only real person in the Universe
I created all of you to share this with me
I love you
This is the way I feel about the world
I feel a stillness rising
I feel the warmth of the sun
I see the hummingbirds enjoying their nectar
From my chair
The soft sweet breeze blowing
I feel connected in new ways
The nano fibers of my being begin to connect
I feel myself expanding across the dimensions
I feel time speeding up
I see things I can never explain
Is that not evidence enough

I confess my need for something more than myself
I walk with no faith or belief
I begin to rise and move without knowing
Where will this path lead
I wish you well on your journey
I can not help but share my foolish words with the world

If you are at the end of yourself
You are closer to the truth than ever in your life
What a dumb thing to give up now
I’m telling you from one who knows
Press on and push through
Start your heroes journey
Seek in love of all
And you will find your way

Image, At the Gates Of Humility – Shane Booth